Thursday, October 26, 2017

I Can Trust Jesus...

corrie ten boom quotes on prayer | How do you remind yourself to hold loosely to…

This quote has grabbed my attention alot. I have had opportunity,
just like anyone else in this world,
to experience the reality of this many times in my short life.

God is sovreign. It took me a number of years to 
grab onto and cling fiercely to the truth
that as His child, I will have nothing done to me,
taken from me, or withheld from me that
He does not allow or ordain for
my good and His glory.

Grasping this and breaking completely in this
has given me amazing freedom to simply be.
I am His.
He is mine.

I don't need to worry.
I don't need to pine away for what
I don't have that it seems I should,
or for what was/is done to me that
is not God's way,
nor do I need to have constant knee-jerk
reactions when life's imperfections touch
me in real ways very often in a week's time.

Go to the Father weeping?
Oh yes.
Surrendered in the weeping?
Great freedom is found there.



Hold to God's unchanging hand.
In that holding, in the yieldedness,
in the vulnerable place of completely
entrusting my life to this One whom
I have never seen and yet His fiery
presence fills my heart,
is one of the most joyous places I
have ever experienced to live.
There, I find life's meaning:
know HIM...
and in the knowing of Him,
I 'unconsciously' make Him known to others.
In this place of freedom, I hear
from Him how to pass along His truth to
my friends and family...
calling for them to come with me
into His presence where there is
fullness of joy.

In this place of trusting freedom,
I find the ability to be grateful,
because praise to Him is powerful,
no matter if my circumstances change,
or if they stay the same for
what seems to stretch out before me
like a long winding river whose
end I cannot see.



He is able.
He is faithful.
He is all knowing.
He will keep me always.

A number of years ago, a dear friend sent me this song.
I know that I shared it on this blog before, but
I share it again because recently it has really been
ministering life to me once more as I walk
thru a harder season than some I have walked
in recent years. I hope that it can encourage you too.


I Can Trust Jesus


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

There Never Was Time...


WORN OUT MEMORIES



Written by an anonymous author from their perspective on American life, particularly in the plain communities they have known...

There never was time...

To marvel at the thousands of sunsets that tinted the western sky with rosy hues.

To wonder at the sky blue robin's eggs that the boys found in the cedar trees by the house.

To walk to the woods and sit by the pond, observing the wildlife and hearing the boy's hopes and dreams.

To pause from the mountains of work created by a lifestyle of materialism and opulence to smile into a child's eyes, or simply rock a baby for no reason at all.

To sit with the family in the grass at dusk and watch the stars come out in the night skies.

To take the country walks they often talked of doing together.

To sit around the Word of God and marvel at its teachings.


There never was time...

To pause and slow down, sitting together with the family to pray over a sick child, or to bring a broken heart to God. It was always more important to get the work done and to push the hurting one aside.

To pray each night, hearing the hearts of the family and taking them to the only One who can hear our deepest needs.

There never was time...

To sit in the middle of the day sometimes and just play games with the children, or eat watermelon at the picnic table on a hazy summer afternoon with the family.

To grow their own food and share the bounty with the neighbors. Always they were in a rush and their attempts at growing a garden ended in disaster some years because their lives were full of trying to make lots of money to pay for all their expensive vehicles and the opulent lifestyle they chose to live.

To sit at the river's edge and watch the current move idly by...pondering life and love and all sorts of meaningful things.

To read a book by a quiet stream

To go on a walk with a hurting soul, letting them share their heart and pointing them to Jesus

To make the Lord the true King of their lives. Always there was a rush to get out the door in the mornings to work to pay the bills (a good third of them which were not needs but wants), or to rush off to revival meetings at church (because after all, the bishop will question you if you are not there). And then it was night and they were tired, and their physical bodies needed rest, but they didn't get to bed as early as they should have because their work kept them up late at night.

I love the cool crisp mornings in fall.
There never was time....



And how sad it was that in their old age, they had time to sit in their rockers, diseased from the rushed lifestyle and the rich food they ate in their opulence, while their children rushed about on the rat race their parents taught them to live. They had plenty of time then to think about what life would have been like if only they had taken the time God gave them and used it more wisely than wasting it in riotous living and gathering up treasures on earth and living in the here and now in the pursuit of happiness.

They now had time to wish their children and grandchildren had time to come see them, but they were too busy making a living to keep up with an even more opulent lifestyle than they themselves had lived. They had time now to hear their grandchildren complaining and demanding that their parents provide better things for them than the already expensive things they have been given.

They had time to wish that people had been more important to them than things.

They now had time to weep deeply at the life they could have lived, had they only chosen to take the time...

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

When Dreams Fail...

and yet, in the midst of life's brokenness, we should still make music to God
because He is worthy of our praise...
No one dreamed the day they married over 20 years ago, that she would fall asleep while driving school children home one day, resulting in an accident that impaired their middle child's brain, leaving them wondering if they would ever see her normally talking and walking again.
No one dreamed the day he was born, that in 8 short years he would be killed in a farm accident, abruptly taken from his place at his daddy's side, where he eagerly watched and learned how to do the work of a Farmer.

No one dreamed, the day he was brought home from the hospital by adoption that he would show signs of Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder at age 5 and continue to create waves and ripples in their home for many years as they struggled to understand his brain disorder and tried with God's wisdom to know how to best care for him and prepare him for the future. No one saw the anguish of the parent's hearts or the many tears that have been shed for him as they walked thru their days. No one saw the crushed heart of his daddy, as he came to terms with the fact that his only son would likely not stand in his place one day as the head of the family.

No one dreamed that after years of pouring love and good teaching into their child, they would rise up in rebellion and anger, scorning the very life that their parents invested so much into them. No one saw the sobs behind closed doors as a mother knelt by her bed and prayed for her child. 

No one dreamed that after 25 years of marriage, things would fall apart and leave a spouse alone, told in no uncertain terms that they are no longer loved or wanted, deeply broken hearted to be so cruelly treated. No one saw the anguished heart as it fell before God many times, pleading that He restore their marriage and bring honor to Jesus' name.


No one dreamed that the parent would turn on the child they raised to believe in Jesus and who chose Jesus in all His simplicity...telling that (now adult) child that they are a disappointment and a stain on the family. No one saw the deep heart groanings of that 'child' as they cried out to God to bless their father anyway, even tho he doesn't understand that his child simply is carrying on the torch of faith he presented to them. 

No one dreamed, when they gazed at the face of their firstborn, beautiful baby girl that one day she would be given an infectious disease that they knew little about. No one saw the mother weep deeply,  held in the arms of her husband at night, who took her to Jesus in prayer. 

No one dreams up these things. We all want the happy things, the beautiful things, the things that cause us to feel like dancing on the rooftops and singing. No one says, yes I'd like to have all my dreams broken and I'd love to feel the pain that comes from desperate situations where there is no seeming answer. No one does that.

But what do I, as a child of God do with broken dreams? I believe that he wants me to trust his heart. I believe that he calls me to surrender all those dreams and let Him make from my life what He would have it to be. I do not understand many things in this world. But I do know that as His child, He ordains the circumstances of my life for my good and for His glory.

I humbly bow before him anew today, and say "Be it unto me, Lord, according to your will", words spoken by the mother of our Lord Jesus, who certainly did not dream of becoming pregnant by the Holy Spirit before she was married.


Saturday, July 22, 2017

Of Lyme Disease and 20 years...



Nearly Twenty years ago, 
this young lady joined our home 
and made me a mother. For twenty years, 
God has faithfully kept me desperate for Him as I 
navigated the trail of bringing my children up
 in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.

In a few weeks, this lady will turn 20,
 and we will have our first child
leave the teen years behind.

It is pure joy to me to watch my daughter choosing
the way of Life, and ask the hard things
so that she can find the answers to the important things.



As I have watched Angela walk thru the hardship of a chronic disease
the past 4 years, admiration grows in my heart daily
 for how she has gracefully
found a way to deal with the disappointment of giving the last half
of her teen years to Lyme Disease and co-infections.
She has had to face the huge hurdle of neurological issues
(outlandish fears, depression, worry and anxiety, and
foggy brain, 
buzzing brain that gets overstimulated in
 bright light or at social functions) 
off and on for 4 years, and has learned
how to keep going in spite of it, in the capacity 
in which she is able to do it.

She doesn't get as much done in 'activity' as 
many young people do, but it blesses me to
watch her determinedly tackle at least basic
homemaking on most any day, and on the days she
feels well, we see glimpses of who she used to be
as she digs into cleaning projects and other things
around the home, her voice like a songbird
singing beautiful hymns to our Maker.



When if feels like she has yet 'another down day',
we have to pause and remember that 
this woman has been able to do two consecutive years
of chorus with a local youth group including tours,
besides the daily round of duties she actually
does including tending parts of our vegetable garden,
the chickens, sometimes doing chores for her dad, etc.
And even if she would not 'get anything done', we would still love her.
I just share that because satan wants to steal our gratitude,
so I fight back by 'remembering'.


I am delighted to walk past the living room door
many afternoons where she busily fills capsules
with the herbs our family uses on a regular basis,
sometimes also I hear a sermon playing while she works.

It has been a deeply painful journey to watch
our daughter walk thru this disease,
and there have been moments when I have hidden in my room
sobbing into my bedspread or pillow because
it was just too painful to experience,
lifting my daughter up to the One who
never leaves us or forsakes us.

But one thing we have learned to know...
God never makes mistakes.
He tailor makes our circumstances for us,
and we  have learned amazing things
thru this one!

It is sometimes a lonely journey, too,
because Lyme disease is an 'unseen'
struggle, for the most part.
We still are learning how to share with 
friends and relatives honestly without
causing them to feel awkward or unsure
how to relate to it all.

Happy birthday, dear Angela.
We love you and look forward
to seeing what God has in store
for you in the days He gives you.


This oldest daughter of mine is blessed beyond measure
with a sister who spent all of her teen years learning
how to sometimes be 'oldest sister' instead of middle child...
who has stepped up and filled in countless times when her
sister was unable to meet the need of the hour.
Her sister has become her best friend, and it is a delight to my heart
to hear them holding 'adult' conversations, having found a way
to celebrate their differences and blend their 'night and day' differences
to make a beautiful friendship that comforts our hearts.

PS
I am grateful to look back thru the past 4 years
and see the healing she has already experienced.
I believe that one day she will be completely healed,
if not in this life, then in eternity.
We are grateful for God's amazing grace

all photo credits go to the talented and lovely
Janelle Eby at Joy Focused Photography

Friday, July 21, 2017

Sixteen Years Ago...

Sixteen years ago...There was a young woman who wanted so desperately to know Jesus. Her heart was crushed deeply from abuse and sinfulness that she had vowed she would never repeat/get involved in and yet she found herself so helplessly doing exactly what she said she would never. Her heart was like a stone, emotionally she was spent and cold, from years of stuffing sorrow and keeping up appearances, as she had been taught, and from years of living without the life of Jesus in her heart.

At 24 years old, this young woman, who had been raised in a Mennonite home and saturated with the Word of God at every turn in church, school, reading material, etc prayed a prayer to God one day that changed her life forever, altho it would be another whole year til she would encounter an event that broke the heavens open to pour out light into her heart.

That woman was me. The prayer I prayed was this: "God, if you even exist, I need to know who you are and what you require of me." Imagine that, a girl brought up 'in the church' asking such a question? Obviously, I believed there was a God if I was praying to Him, but I do think that we all need to come to grips with that 'walking in faith' for ourselves for it ever to stick.

I kept asking, seeking, knocking. I kept wondering if I was going to go to heaven or hell when I died. I kept watching those close to me who had something I didn't have and I so desperately wanted it.

One day, my dear sister-in-law, who was newly born of Him  herself, gave me some CD sermons preached by Zac Poonen. I had never heard of him in my life but I wanted to know the truth. If she said that this helped her, and she was changed, then I wanted to know what it was myself!

I had always been taught to be cautious of who I listen to or whose material I read. I actually believe this is true, and still employ that counsel today. That is what I 'heard in my ear' as I put the first sermon into the player that day. I wondered, how will I know that what I hear is true or not? But from the moment I heard him speak, the Holy Spirit witnessed to my heart that this was truth.

In about 3 CD's, I knew that I had never been converted. I was actually relieved to know the answer to my problems. I was convicted but I wasn't condemned. I know some people struggle with condemnation, and I did before I heard Zac explain who God is and what He requires of me. I did not wait to hear the rest of the sermons in that series (I think there were 9 altogether). I knelt down on that plum colored carpet in the single-wide house trailer we lived in on some of the best prairie land I have ever seen in MO, and I got my life aligned with God. I was radically converted, I feel looking back like I was sort of like Paul on the road to Damascus. A lightning bolt came and struck me and I KNEW that I had found the answer that my soul so long had craved to know.

In the years that have followed, I have listened to many of Zac Poonen's sermons. He has been used of God in that way to disciple me and instruct my on true brokenness, living in the fellowship of God, and observing all that Jesus taught. I have never been the same. I have learned so much and I am so delighted that God has answered the cry of my heart.

For 13 of those 16 years, we have lived within 5 hours of where Zac comes to preach in PA every summer. I have longed many times to go hear him in person and thank him for being instrumental in my life, but every year came and went, and I was disappointed but resigned to the will of God.

This year, I got an unexpected surprise. I casually mentioned that Zac would be preaching in a few weeks, not even thinking about going. A few days later, my darling Farmer came to me and said he'll take me to PA to hear Zac preach. I was so shocked and overjoyed.




So this past Friday afternoon, my Farmer and I left our children, who are old enough to stay home alone (circumstances had us decide that they would stay behind), and literally drove through 'deep waters' to get out of NY to go to the meetings, with flash floods like we have never seen in all our 30 plus years of living in NY.

The meetings were wonderful. I came home feeling refreshed in my soul. Lamar found some answers to deep soul searching he has been walking through, and I got to fulfill my 16 year dream of hearing Zac preach in person (He's from India), and shake his hand and tell him the story of God used him to rescue me from eternal death. His face glowed with joy as I told him the story of my conversion and how he helped me to know so much how to 'live in the presence of God'. He humbly said, "That is wonderful, sister! Now go keep doing that!"

I wanted to share this story on here to say that God's timing can be trusted. If you are his child, then he tailor makes your circumstances for you. There is nothing that you wait for that he is too late or too early to fulfill. I have learned this lesson over and over and over again in my short life of being his servant. I sometimes have to still remind myself of this when I am walking thru a circumstance where I think that something just HAS to change soon and I find myself feeling frustrated that it seems God is being a bit lax in doing his job.



The Lord is mighty to save. He will keep us always. Let us be faithful in walking in close fellowship with him every day that He gives us breath.

If you are interested in hearing any of Zac's preaching, he has over a thousand sermons on youtube alone, I think and also many articles, books and sermons on his church's website. I'll post links below.

www.cfcindia.com




Tuesday, July 18, 2017

How "We" Came to Be...

I love how Google photos shows me memories each day from the same day in years gone by. Wow, the things we did, the places we went, the moments we experienced that I would forget if I didn't have a reminder... This picture from last year of Lamar and I at the farewell party of a dear friend made me glow with warm memories of that day. Upon a second glance at this picture today, tho, I saw the baseball glove in Lamar's hand and my mind went all the 'way back to 1989 or 1990 when I was a girl of 13 in the 7th grade. I was a newbie to the high school room that year, and felt a little awkward inside, altho I hid that very well behind the protective veneer or confident superiority. But I did feel very awkward around all the upper graders in that room. Especially when we went out to play softball at recess time. Until a certain gentlemanly gesture melted that scared feeling and ultimately changed my life to date.

Mr. Lamar was in the 9th grade and well liked by many and had already turned the heads of a few of the girls. Why he chose me that day, I don't know, but in my memory, I can still see him shyly handing me his dark red baseball glove, offering it to me to use when his team was up to bat. And that is how our 'love story' began. To this day, that memory serves to remind me how this man of mine has always protected me and cared for me well. He has most always been the steady one in our relationship, holding me up through many a day of grief as I walked through deep heart pain. He has been the one person in my life that has provided continuous safety as I stood on wobbly feet as a newborn Christian five years into our marriage and then stepped aside as I learned to fly, letting me find my sure footing in Jesus.

My heart weeps as I think of how incredibly blessed I have been. I do not deserve such a gift, but I certainly receive it with thanksgiving and gratitude to the One who gave it, even tho I started out in this 'love story' backwards, with me at the center instead of Jesus.

Tho my husband is a man and certainly has his faults like any other man in this world, I am so happy to do life with him and I bless him in whatever way I can for rescuing me and for all the 'red baseball glove moments' he has gifted me with over the years through his quiet selfless acts of service to me and his family.


Thursday, June 29, 2017

In My Flesh Dwells No Good Thing...

This has been on my heart for years and I just felt inspired to write it down here, as I ponder a recent situation/discussion on the subject.

We have a flesh. I think all of us are keenly aware of it, altho in some religious circles, this seems to be a subject somewhat avoided and ignored, as if it didn't exist at all when one chooses to identify with Jesus or the interpretation of Jesus that the group may have. Somehow it has become a mindset that it's 'embarrassing' to admit that we have a flesh, I think because we are afraid of being misunderstood or dealt with harshly because you know, after you 'accept Jesus', you are supposed to somehow magically never struggle with the flesh again, because if you do struggle with the flesh, or if  you have a 'feeling from the fleshly side of things', then surely that means you are not truly walking with God. (said sarcastically, shaking my head)

We have a flesh. "In me, that is in my flesh, dwells no good thing." Paul wrote these words to his fellow believers around 2,000 years ago and it is still very true today because there is 'no new thing under the sun'. Mankind is always the same. Ever since the fall, we all have inherited a sinful nature and desperately need to be restored to our Father God through His son, Jesus. Every day that I walk this earth, I am grateful to God that He redeemed my life from destruction and crowned me with lovingkindness and tender mercy. But I am keenly aware of the fact that I have a flesh that I can choose to serve at any time. It takes a moment-by-moment commitment to trust wholly in the capability of the Holy Spirit to guide me into all truth, a complete surrender to the Lordship of Jesus Christ, in order for me to experience the fullness and the abundance of that life He came to give me.

We have a flesh. But please let's not celebrate it. It needs to be crucified and buried with Christ so that we can experience His resurrection power and newness of life. It is not something to celebrate that I am capable of acting in selfishness and godlessness.

That I can feel godless and selfish at times is definitely something true. However, what I like to tell young women that I counsel, and what I've learned in my own journey, is this: FEELINGS are not facts. FEELINGS allow you to decide whether or not to ponder that thought further, allowing it to pass through into an action, or to toss it out and replace it with something full of LIFE from Jesus.

I see people sometimes almost celebrating our flesh. I think this likely is a reactionary measure from being oppressed by a religious community in their youth but I would like to say that this is not really the response that God is looking for. He calls us to lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily besets us. He calls us to become NEW. Nowhere in this 'becoming new' do I see room to glorify the flesh. If I am called to glorify my Father who is in heaven, then I am called to bear my Cross, deny myself and put my fleshly 'feelings' where they belong.

So my encouragement in this blog post is two fold:
1. Don't celebrate the flesh.
2. Don't act like you have no fleshly feelings ever that you need to take to the Cross

There's a ditch on either side. May we follow our Lord Jesus on the narrow way that leads Home, turning neither to the left hand nor to the right.

I am deeply  humbled at the mercy and grace my Father has given me thru the gift of redemption. It is not of my 'works', lest I should boast in my accomplishements. Living a consistently free life is HIS doing. "Here's my heart, Lord. Take and seal it, seal if for Thy courts above."

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Noticing the Beauty...


I was thrilled last PM to accept my Farmer's invitation to go on a date with him as
he planted his last acres of organic crops before the rain was predicted to arrive.

 It's been a very rainy spring
so far, and altho every year
seems to be a walk of faith
in the farming world,
this spring especially
seemed that way with 
all the rain keeping
us out of the fields
and the calendar silently
telling us that the
deadline for planting
all those seeds we bought
was marching steadily
closer each day.

Our family is in a
strange season of life,
the parents have reached
middle-age and the
children are all 
teenagers,
and it seems the Lord
is doing a bit of
shaking in our
lives, preparing
us for a new season,
the details of which
only He knows.

We are open to His call
to come higher in our
personal walk with Him,
and we are waiting on
Him to show us 
what He has in store
for us in the next season.


The longer Lamar and I walk this journey of marriage/life together,
the more we are aware that is is important to enjoy the beauty and life
while it is today. No one knows that tomorrow we will have each other,
and so we are trying to simply enjoy the days as God gives them.


So last night, even tho
the buddy seat in the tractor is
meant for a small child and is
uncomfortable, requiring the
occupant of said seat to 
hold herself on in many
uncomfortable positions,
and even tho there was a whiff
of stinky fish fertilizer that
wafted to my nostrils on
occasion,
I basked in the beauty of the
evening...the sun that was sinking
down behind the hills,
the fresh summer night air
each time we got out to refill
the planter,
the honeysuckle blooming
profusely in the hedgerows,
the giant purple alliums
growing in the tall grasses
that tell their tales of days
gone by when a gardener lived
on this farm,
the 'birthday cake' white chocolate
that I was saving in my purse
for a special occasion,
the calloused hand of the Farmer
in my own hand as we
hiked across the freshly worked
soil and up the steep hill of the field
lane to get the truck at dusk,
that I had health enough to do that
with him, for the climb was arduous;
the quiet of the tractor cab,
with occasional conversation 
mingling with the comfortable silence,
and most of all,
I praise God that this Farmer of mine
seeks Him,
and cares for my heart.



"We have this moment today..."
Friends lost their father this week,
suddenly and without warning.
"Yesterday's gone, and tomorrow
may never come...
BUT we have this moment
today."

Will we spend those moments in worry?
Fretting over lost hopes and broken dreams?
Or will we appreciate the gifts that He 
DAILY loads us with,
resting in His unchanging grace
and completely trusting His ability
to lead us safely to wherever we are going?



I choose praise.
I choose trust.
I choose to love.
I choose HIM.

Because He lives,
I can face tomorrow.

The view out of our window a few weeks ago...


We plowed the fields...
We scattered the good seed on the ground...
Now we wait expectantly for the harvest
that only GOD can produce.
And while we wait,
we will live and love in the moments
He gives us.



































Friday, May 12, 2017

That Others May See...


The many workings of God I will only ever see 'thru a glass darkly' 
on this side of eternity.
But something really stood out to me when I read this
 Psalm on this quote card one day this week, 
and then it popped up again in the "Praise Him Anyway" reading challenge
 that our family is doing several nites a week.

If I have been rescued from a pit and my feet have 
been set on a rock
and I have a firm foundation on which to stand,
this puts a song in my heart and I praise the Lord.
It's obvious in the last two lines of this Psalm
that the praise will radiate from my life and my mouth
because other people will see and fear the Lord
and put their trust in Him.

This sentiment is echoed in the Sermon on the Mount
where Jesus tells us to let our lights shine before men
'that they may see your good works and glorify
your Father which is in heaven'.

The purpose of people noticing the change in me?
SO that they may be reminded of Who is calling them
to repentance and a new life.

Nothing new here. But fresh thots that blessed my heart deeply.
Let us go forth in full and glad surrender,
loving the Lord and knowing Him.
We have a God who yearns to have us follow him fully,
and who has commissioned us to be witnesses that
Jesus lives!

Friday, April 28, 2017

Out of My Stony Griefs...

"Then with my waking thots,
Bright with Thy praise,
Out of my stony griefs
Bethel I'll raise..."

As the words of this well-known song spilled out of my playlist
 this afternoon on my way home from sitting in a lawn chair on a gravel farm lane with my Farmer as he ate his lunch before returning to the field, my thots begans to come together and inspiration hit for a blog post after a LONG silence.

My silence has been for a number of reasons. It has been a rocky and rough way this winter...as God works in our lives preparing us for the coming season, the details of which only He knows. I have walked through deep heartache and the enemy has thrown the Big D at me: discouragement... I've tripped in it. I've fought against it in Jesus' name...I've wept. I've been deeply pained. But I remain firm on the Rock of Ages cleft for me. 

This morning I arose and I texted two friends: "Today I choose joy in redemption and appreciation for the blessings along life's way. He is worthy." I also told a friend that I decided QUITE FIRMLY to praise my Maker today.

You know what? Ever since that 'quite firmly' purposeful choice, I have had some pretty amazing thots downloaded into my heart from Father God. One of them is this:

Do we truly believe that the people that are hurting and disappointing us (righteously, not selfishly)
are used of God to prepare us for what is next, to not hold onto the community/desire for people we think should be to us who they are choosing not to be. Perhaps they should be, but in all things
God works it out for our good and His glory.


I took a few minutes to bask in the quietness after my Farmer went back to his fields.
The farm was quiet and still. Birdsong floated in on the spring breeze.
I stood looking across the road to the pasture and the hills beyond.
I noticed the bright greens of new leaves.
And I thot: what a beautiful season is Spring, perhaps even more beautiful
after walking through the hardness of Winter to get there.
So it is in life. It is hard to walk through winter seasons of grief and unknowns.
It is hard to walk through pain and heartache,
wondering where we belong in certain situations,
watching others have what you yourself thot God wanted for you,
grieving losses,
honestly seeking wisdom for moving forward,
wondering which direction God is opening a door,
watching others as they walk thru their breaking with God
feeling powerless to 'fix anything', but all the while knowing
God can do it better than you can...

Winter snows are tiresome sometimes.
They are hard work sometimes.



But Spring's blush is amazing.
The colors pop out vibrantly in blades of grass
and in the daffodil's cheery flower.
Weariness of winter snows is soon a forgotten past
as we dig in the dirt of the garden,
and admire the dogwood's pink blooms.

Our hearts are cheered
 and our skin is warmed
 by the
kiss of the 
golden sunshine.



Hang in there, friend.
 If you are in Winter, 
just keep walking.
Worship your God.
Praise your Maker.
Honor your King.
Walk humbly with 
your God.
He is Worthy of all 
praise, glory and honor.



"As long as the earth endures,
seedtime and harvest,
cold and heat,
summer and winter,
day and night
will never cease."

I Can Trust Jesus...

This quote has grabbed my attention alot. I have had opportunity, just like anyone else in this world, to experience the reality ...